the tag game

Rules:
Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged needs to write an entry of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs.

15 weird things/habits/little known facts about ME!

1. i have a morbid fear of roaches! cockroachaphobia! is there such a term? wehehehe
2. i have a huge collection of rpg games but i've only finished 3 of them, namely, final fantasy - 8, 10, and 12.
3. i haven't witnessed a sunrise for almost 2 years now.
4. i am the first (self-proclaimed) 'emo.' my HS classmates dubbed me that for some unknown reasons. hehehe...
5. i really want to have a pet horse so that i can ride it ala geronimo! grrrr... and a ranch. hehehe
6. i can't remember birthdays! good thing cellphones/social networking sites feature birthday reminders! :P
7. i'm a hypocrite. ahehe
8. i easily get fed up with a LOT of things.
9. the first movie that scared the shit out of me was ju-on. damn glorietta's CRs for having speakers installed in em!
10. i am NOT fond of kids.
11. i can't get enough of my sassy girl. watched it for 8+ times already.
12. i cried over land before time 1.
13. i had a pet monkey (muymuy) but i gave it back to my gramps. its dead now.
14. back in my younger years.. i was offered to star (or extra?) in a commercial. wahahaha..
15. i've never bought a single clothing item for myself, everrrrr...

i don't know anybody who'd want to play. i guess it ends here. :(

virgohoro 5/20/07

The Bottom Line

Be clearer about what you can do for the people who are asking for your help.

In Detail

It's time for you to be clearer about what you can (and cannot) do for the people in your life who are asking for your help. This applies to both your personal and business life, but it's much more relevant to work right now. Some people might be asking you to do things that they have plenty of time to do themselves. You always assume the best of people, but not everyone deserves this generosity.

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aha! tumpak! tis all! :P

somebody give me a kitkat

i don't know why i waste my time. i'm putting myself through so much strain than i need to be. many things have been spoken, more so are left undone.

while its one thing to be compassionate and another to be indulgent, i never saw the difference then. now i know it all too well.

i just want to save the world but i'm snowed under.

so and so

it has been an extremely monotonous 2 weeks for me. first half of my day (which often starts at 2pm) was spent in front of the computer. and the second half's when i go out with my cousins/friends to grab a snack, drink coffee, down a beer or something. that's how it usually went, for 2 weeks straight! bummer!

first off, i've been watching movies/shows/animes over this wonderful site 8+ hours a day! you name it, they have it... at least a lot of the good ones, from the most recent down to the obscure. my number one pick for unheard of animes is basilisk! it tells a bit of history on how japan employed ninjas in deciding their shogun. now i won't spill more details but if you're a ninja freak like me then it'll definitely work for you. as far as shows are concerned, i have consumed all heroes and ugly betty episodes there are to find. for me to be watching heroes is predictable considering my lifelong fascination with super powered characters but what's amazing is how ugly betty kept me glued. it could be in the way she stays true to herself when the 'real' world clearly wants to spit her back out. or maybe its in how she's easily identifiable with a large population of the very 'regular' kind, me included. :P and there's also that deep wanting to see her turn from ugly to pretty. those are several things that give the show a subtle charm, making it a must-see series. also, betty looks and acts a lot like my HS classmate so that's an added bonus! i bet you're thinking that i'm not so hooked to this huh? :P

i've been out and about past 10pm and constant chillin' has never been more tedious. hanging around with my friends and cousins was something i usually looked forward to, now it has become so predictable that it feels more like work and less like fun. it's not that i don't enjoy their company but seeing the same faces night after night makes me want to gag. they are the greatest people i could have around, it's just that i need a break... even for a day. i am desperately needing some alone time but saying no to these guys is like committing the gravest crime punishable by life sentence. what to do? what to do? especially when i'm low on cash and i have currently been reinstated as the 'counselor.'

*before i go on, i should warn you that this is the part where i'll ego trip for a wee bit :P* being the contemplative (uyyy.. feeler) and nosy person that i am its no surprise that i have become the proverbial shoulder to cry on, listening ear, love doctor, keeper of secrets or whatchamacallit. it's not that i mind... i really dont coz i find great honor in having their full trust... but as of late they've all been spilling their love problems on me, all in one go! wahh.. what is it about summer and its mean spell on romantic relationships? tsk tsk tsk... i can't say i give the best advice coz i can be pretty harsh. also, i'm not the most experienced person in the L department and yet they take my word for it... or do they really?! hehehe... maybe i'm just lucky my friends are gullible enough to believe in my supposed wisdom :P *end!* but when i do get tired of their whining i will have to convince them to have their problems solved straight from the love calculator! nyahahaha

and for those of you who follow this blog, you might notice that i have changed the template. for those of you who don't, it wouldn't mean a world of difference now would it? :P the new banner didn't work well with the previous template so i am forced to utilize one of blogger's presets until i find the time to fully renovate this. btw, the wonderful banner you see above is all thanks to arielski. if you wish to have one made just visit his site. *i will be receiving an incentive for the free advertise* :P

anyway, i admire you for getting this far in my pointless entry. it just goes to show how bored you are. :P i'll try to talk about something more relevant next time but until then let me leave you with something i found hilarious. just click on the image to get a clearer view. guess what i got :P

'nuff said

tarot tarot

You are The Chariot

Triumph, Victory, Overcoming Obstacles.

The chariot is one of the most complex cards to define. On its most basic level, it implies war, a struggle, and an eventual, hard-won victory. Either over enemies, obstacles, nature, the beasts inside you, or to just get what you want. But there is a great deal more to it. The charioteer wears emblems of the sun, yet the sign behind this card is the moon. The chariot is all about motion, and yet it is often shown as stationary. It is a union of opposites, like the black and white steeds. They pull in different directions, but must be (and can be!) made to go together in one direction. Control is required over opposing emotions, wants, needs, people, circumstances; bring them together and give them a single direction, your direction. Confidence is also needed and, most especially, motivation. The card can, in fact, indicate new motivation or inspiration, which gets a stagnant situation moving again.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

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interesting tarot card i picked... fits like a glove. i got this from lurshlee nga pala. :P

virgohoro 4/4/07

The Bottom Line

If you start feeling restless today, distract yourself by hanging out with friends.

In Detail

Don't be concerned if you start feeling quite restless today -- the stars say that there are a lot of good things coming your way soon, and your subconscious can sense them. You're getting impatient -- even though you don't know what you're impatient about! You can spend your day imagining what these good things could be. Or you can distract yourself with work and let the surprise unfold as the universe wants it to unfold.

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ain't that grand? it's been a long wait... :D

"I want to believe that it is wonderful to be free. Free again. Ready to find my one true love, who is waiting for me and who will never allow me to experience such humiliation again."

what if i asked why you pull me along?
will you give me the answer i badly want to hear?

what if i never gave you that nth chance?
would it have made any difference?

what if i'll leave all of a sudden?
will it make you think of what you've lost?

what if our paths never crossed?
would it have made me any less unhappy?

it could have been a month or a year but i gave up long before i realized that i wanted it to stay...

still the world turns

i will wait for you but please come soon

like a constant hum in my head,
you never cease to play.
in my next lifetime,
will we fall under a more favorable circumstance?
in that one shining star i've set my eyes on,
will it be me you'll choose?
i continue to hope,
and always will.

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i get mushy when i'm drunk... i think i am. :P

blog before bed

just a few secrets that hit me like umph! :-P


haymish langai and the bluemansion! will be seeing you soon! :-)


lastly, here's something from Paulo Coelho's By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept:

All of us have had this experience. At some point, we have each said through our tears, "I'm suffering for a love that's not worth it." We suffer because we feel we are giving more than we receive. We suffer because our love is going unrecognized. We suffer because we are unable to impose our own rules.

ahsus! :-P

the zahir

"Until one morning, I'll wake up and find I'm thinking about something else, and then I'll know the worst is over. My heart might be bruised, but it will recover and become capable of seeing the beauty of life once more. It happened before, it will happen again I'm sure. When someone leaves, it's because someone is about to arrive --- I'll find love again."

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and the world spins madly on...

please

take me far, far away...

mr. chips

1 little, 2 little, 3 little blinking lights...



when lo and behold a shooting star streaked past. now, you don't see those too often! was i merely imagining things? no matter, i made a wish, one i've been keeping for so long. they say wishes are best left for children who still believe in dreams coming true, for hopeless hopefuls waiting on better days, lovers wanting their own happy ever after and so on. you can call me cheesy but there's no harm in trying, right? :P

i've wished for this on my birthday, christmas eve, new year, chain mails, fortune telling, card games, what have you... only this time, i feel differently, much stronger of it coming true because it was whispered on a shooting star when the night sky was nothing but stellar.

i will wait for you but please come soon... :)

hahay, hay, hohum, etc.

dear blog,

i had another one of those dreadful nights when i ended up thinking of how ill-fated i am. sad, i know. it was good that my internet connection went crappy else i would've fed my sappy mood with PEYUPS' tragic *cough*love*cough* stories. right when i got cut off, 12am, somebody invited me for a little chit chat. and for the lack of better things to do, i went out (SNEAKED out was more like it) and headed to this hard metal rock concert or whatever you call it. ugh... definitely not my thing. it was strange how everybody stared at me when i got there. were they checking me out? NO. i was the only one in white in a sea of black. it just wasn't one of those normal days when i'd predictably wear black. anyway on with my story, seeing gian was worthwhile despite the constant shrieking/singing in the backgroud. catching up with a long time friend is always refreshing. we reminisced about high school and shared college experiences. it was funny how both of us intentionally veered away from talking about future plans. i guess we're still unsure of what's ahead of us. "let's leave it to the wind!" we both cheered. it's good to know that i'm not the only one on the "devil may care" boat. :D we said our goodbyes at 4am and so i sped off feeling better when i hit a pothole at 80 km/h. that would've been my nth motorcycle accident. thank you Lord for keeping me safe!

i had a really swell time but at the end of it all there's still that nagging thought that something's not right. it just isn't. something's missing. oh well, it's 6am and i should be off to bed. i'll have enough time to figure it out whence i wake up.

hahay... the more that i wait, the more time that i waste.

gudmornyt!

virgohoro 02/13/07

The Bottom Line

Today, push things into a decidedly more romantic realm. It's up to you.

In Detail

If things have been getting silly instead of serious between you and another person, today is the day to push things into a decidedly more romantic realm. If you want things to grow, you will have to nurture them. Surround yourself with candlelight, soft music and exotic fragrances -- and dress in an outfit that you know will get you noticed. Create a comfortable situation that is conducive to talking about your feelings and talking about where to go next.

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romantic my arse. put me up next for the firing squad. pffft...

for the meantime...

She’s the one you call when you’re bored because she makes you laugh. She’s the one you talk to when you’re feeling down because she’s willing to lend an ear and be a friend. She’s not the one you call when you need a date to your company’s Christmas party, or to go dancing with on a Saturday night. She’s the one you spend time with between girlfriends, before you find "The One". You know, the one who you keep around in the meantime.

She’s not one of the guys, not a tomboy, but you don’t look at her as a "real" woman, either. She’s not bitchy enough, moody enough, or sexy enough to be seen in that light. She’s too laid-back, too easily amused by the same things your male buddies are amused by. She’s too understanding, too comfortable – she doesn’t make you feel nervous or excited the way a "real" woman does. But she’s cool, and nice, and funny, and attractive enough that when you’re lonely or horny and need intimate female companionship, she’ll do just fine. You don’t have to wine and dine her because she knows the real you already, and you don’t have any facades to keep up, no pretenses to preserve. You’re not trying to get anything of substance out of her. She’s not easy, but you know that she cares about you and is attracted to you, and that she’ll give you the intimacy you need. And you know you don’t have to explain yourself or the situation, that she’ll be able to cope with the fact that this isn’t the beginning of a relationship or that there’s any possibility that you have any real romantic feelings for her. It won’t bother her that you’ll get up in the morning, put on your pants, say goodbye, and go on a date with the woman you’ve been mooning over for weeks who finally agreed to go out with you. She’ll settle for a goodbye hug and a promise to call her and tell her how the date went. She’s just so cool . . . why can’t all women be like that?!

But deep down, if you really think about it (which you probably don’t because to you, the situation between the two of you isn’t important enough to merit any real thought), you know that it’s really not fair. You know that although she would never say it, it hurts her to know that despite all her good points and all the fun you two have, you don’t think she’s good enough to spend any real time with. Sure, it’s mostly her fault, because she doesn’t have to give in to your needs – she could play the hard-to-get bitch like the rest of them do, if she really wanted to. But you and she both know that she probably couldn’t pull it off. Maybe she’s too short, or a little overweight, or has a big birthmark on her forehead, or works at Taco Bell. Whatever the reason, somehow life has given her a lot of really great qualities but has left out the ones that men want (or think they want) in a woman. So she remains forever the funny friend, the steadfast companion, the secret lover, and you go on searching for your goddess who will somehow be everything you ever wanted in a woman.

She doesn’t captivate you with her beauty, or open doors with her smile. Mainly she blends in with the crowd. She’s safe. She doesn’t want to be the center of attention and turn the heads of everyone in the room. But she wants to turn someone’s head. She wants to be special to someone, too. We all do.

She has feelings. She has a heart. In fact, she probably has a bigger and better heart than any woman you’ve ever known because she’s had a front-row seat to The Mess That Is Your Life, and she likes you anyway. She obviously sees something worthwhile and redeeming in you because although you’ve given her nothing, absolutely no reason to still be around, she is.

Anyway, yeah. I’m a Meantime Girl. Been one more times than I care to admit. I don’t know the reason, really, and at this point I don’t even care. I just want to let every guy know who’s ever had the good fortune to have a Meantime Girl that we may be a lot of fun, but we cry, too. A lot. And someday we won’t be around.

~Meantime Girl by Anonymous
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Why is it that some people never appreciate what's already at hand? I must admit that i once had the fortune of having a pseudo Meantime Girl. I so easily brushed aside her efforts of procuring a more intimate relationship than what i could provide. She kept on and for a while I played along, thinking that I could have it my way... for us to be JUST FRIENDS. I was selfish and in the long run, she left. So yes, I am one of those people who often take things for granted. But just so you know, if there would be a male counterpart to the Meantime Girl, that would definitely be me. OUCH! I'm not saying this to clear up my conscience, simply put, shit happens and karma's payback is severe. From then on I've learned to always follow the GOLDEN RULE.

Haaaaahay... I miss her. And I'm sorry.

rant # i dunno

I have no idea what I’d do with my life. No job, no purpose, no direction, no goal, no aim. Nada! Back when I was a kid, I could easily say that I’d be a paleontologist but look at me now! I couldn’t even see myself in a year’s time. Pffft! Nothing excites me anymore. I keep on ‘chilling’ and looking for ‘adventure’ to the point that it’s become darn too predictable. I’ve even sworn off my quick fix, drinking coz I’ve been at it non-stop. I’m telling you, there comes a point when not even that could better the feeling of ‘blankness.’ My life is so mundane. My life is so uninspiring. Oh wait! I don’t have a life… it’s that simple. What am I here for anyway? Hohum… But still, thank God for allowing me to survive the dreadful year that was 2006. Thank YOU!

And there’s also my dismal lurvelife. Demn! Most of my friends might not know this but I’ve been fretting over lurve for the past year. And there’s still no sign of Cupid! But lo and behold! My good friend Angel finally found herself a boyfriend! Hahaha… I can’t forget how we (classmates) used to tease her, “manigulang jud kang walay uyab Gel! Single for life!” And looky now, she even has “Til I met you, I never knew what love was” as her shout out. Demn! I guess our Kung Ako Nalang Sana deal’s off, eh Gel? It’s cool coz I still have a few contracts at hand. Hahaha… I know Cupid’s just fluttering about purposefully missing the arrows aimed at me or maybe he couldn’t find it amongst the pile of arrows reserved for the other hopefuls. And there’s also the chance that one’s already sticking out of my chest but I’ve been refusing to admit it. Who knows? Hahaha… I’ll just get crazier the more I think about this. Ambot!

Life oh life! It hasn’t been easy but I’m still here… waiting. “I can hear my grandma say, you can’t get to no better days unless you’d make it through the night” as taken from the song Better Days. Hehehehe… Haaaaaaaahay! Maypa mag-WAITER nalang sa ko, magkakwarta pako!

Last hirit: INSPIRE ME! MOVE ME! STIR ME! AROUSE ME! Wahahaha… Nonsense na. Haaaay… find me.

looky what i found...

hahahahaha... watcha think? peace! :-p

ulan

Rain was pouring hard. 3:43pm - and I tried to find traces of my person in your words. I couldn't find me.

It’s been so long and I still feel like I’m only around whenever you need a good kick. But when it’s my turn to be sated, you never deliver. I don’t know why I keep on keeping on when the best you could give me are silly imaginings. How did you even manage to slip past my defenses?

I never thought I'd be too agreeable, too convenient. Not that it was your fault although you could have done more. I’m beginning to sound like him, don’t I?

And yet we are different because unlike him, I would never settle for ambiguity. Unlike him, I won’t be swallowed by the vacuum of your insatiable ego. Unlike him, I will not grant you the satisfaction of having me beg or cry. And unlike him, I will stop before things get out of hand...

But until then let me just love you in silence because like rain on a gloomy Monday, this too shall pass.

Siguro...

dimalas jud ko. Murag naay nakakabit nga sumpa. Tungod ba ni sa akong pagtrato nimo sauna? Dugay najud ta wala nagsturya bha… makamingaw bya pero kabalo ko nga mas maayo rapod ning ing-ani ky unyag makasakit napod ko nimo. Pero kabalo ka… feeling nako nakarma ko tungod sa akong nabuhat nimo. Palpak kaayo ko sa daghang butang. Ambot kung hantud kanus-a ko magdala ani pero anad naman kog hulat so kabalo ko nga mahuman rani. Pero wala tika gibasol ani hah… Unta mubalik lang tong sauna… kung kanus-a simple pa ang tanan na magkanchaway lang ta. Lingaw pa kaayo to bha? Maghuna huna lang ko nimo ky magkatawa nako, mura kog amaw. Hehehehe… matingala gud na akong mga kauban ky mura daw kog buang ky magtisngi lang sa kilid. Wala sila kabalo nga dugay nakong buang. Hahahaha… Wala lang. Gimingaw lang jud ko nimo unya daghan na kaayo kog ganahan isturya nimo… Oh well, kung kelangan nimo ug listening ear or a good laugh I'm always available… that is if naa pakay plano musturya nako... Just remember na basta nimo I'm just around... ayaw lang unta hulata kung kanus-a wala nako... ewan... I miss you and Merry Xmas!

just so i'd remember

i shud've posted this back in january nho? pero better late than never matod pa ni.. ambot kinsay niingon. wahehehe.. so so so..

The year that was 2005
1. during summer, we had our OJT in cebu. fun.
2. boozing, yo-ing like crazy - tried everything. NASTY
3. night-out sessions with ysai at the children's park, city hall, jollibee, el centro, etc. i miss those.
4. saturday nights were reserved for d'zyr - where li used to sing. fan here. :P
5. went out with cousins on several saturdays. pasingot dayun ang tandu. wahahaha..

dates to remember:
Oct 9 - ehem. perfect night. Starry starry night. lol
Oct 14 - sai, elvin and lulu. maghubo unta to si virginal. LOL. dead wasted in BATC
Oct 17 - iced tea sa darrens. ysai and lu. pekchur pekchur
Oct 20 - dance and voice class sa family room nilang lulu with ysai
Oct 21 - naabot si ods ug nabungkag tanan. hahahaha
Oct 22 - darren's with gian, sai, ods and lu. aguy noy!
Oct 24 - arvin, hospicio, ods, lulu and ysai. inom at lulu's unya nagsuka ko sa ilang guest room ug ISAW. Wala pajud nako gilimpyuhan! Bad! nyaha!
Oct 26 - lady's burger nagkanta kanta. A whole new wooooorld~ wahahaha the best!!!!
Oct 31 - lulu's bday sa dzyr! yahoo! Naa pajud cake gibake si sai ani.. awwwwww
skip to December ky secret ang November. wahahaha...
Dec 2 – lingaw ni nga adlaw ky daghan nahitabo namung saldi. wahaha
Dec 9 – middleton ky bday ni aki! hubog na ni!!!
Dec 17 - CSM christmas party with lu and jade. nakit-an si **o**. car broke down at lu's. busa nagjogging ko at 3am! aguy noy! nyaha
Dec 21 - gazpachos with mitzie and lulu.. fine dining kunuhay unya sisig rajud among gikaon!!! hahaha.. lami bitaw. nakiginom dayun si mitz sa BATC
Dec 27 - Grade school reunion sa BATC. lingaw ug update update sa kinabuhi.
Dec 28 - High school reunion at Jay's place. magicsing. inom. sayaw. yebah!city hall after with gian, shek, ods, and saldi
Dec 29 - BATC napod with with mt. basa, ods and pussy p. gisapot mi atong geisha sa i love sushi. nyeh.
Dec 30 - sexy friday! shek, ods, saldi and emily g. eldran pod. daghan ug uwagan. yehey! hahahaha..
Dec 31 - just befor 12mn... city hall with ods and saldi.. awwwww.. kakyut!
Jan 2 - sawi session mi ni saldi. 5 bottles of beer for me, 2 iyaha.. clarity!
Jan 3 - arvin, gian and lu sa BATC. had gianinna drive to arvin's! yey!

after that.. nagcram na dayun sa school.. wahahaha..

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The year that was (is pa diay.. gamay nalang kulang) 2006… (mag-english napod para serious... hehehe)

A lot has happened this year. I can still remember what I prayed for even before 2006 began; I asked for twelve months of eventfulness, and eventful it was, still is. I experienced the horrors of thesis-work, fearing I wouldn’t graduate but graduate I did. I was off to work that very month, only to quit several months after. I enjoyed my independence as well as feel the loneliness of having been far from my family. I met new people, made friends and even said goodbye to a few. I’ve been to places I’ve only heard/seen on tv and those where I shouldn’t have been. My family moved for the 1^st time in 21 years and yet I still can’t call our new house a home. Who would have thought that I could go quite far in a year, only to fall back at square one? Yes this has been a year of firsts for me. Many unexpected things happened and I'm sure more will come. The fire dog hasn't been good to me but I know that it’s all for the best. I'll just charge it to experience. Now that it's almost over, what does the fire pig have in store for me, for us? Oh well, we can only expect the worst and hope for the best (diba Dorz? :P). Okay, I'm done yammering, now I'm happy. Cheers to all of us! To another year rich with life but more importantly to the affirmation that it is indeed worth living (diba Salds? :D)! Keep praying, keep living! God Bless one and all!

As for my Christmas wish for everyone: I wish you peace but more than this I wish you love! :P Happy Xmas!