Thursday, December 30, 2004

sick

When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure.
But when you find a new love, youview the past as a teacher.
In the game of love, itdoesn't really matter who won or who lost.
What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go.
You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy.
Even if their happiness means that you're not part of it.
Everything happens for the best.
If the person you love doesn't love you back, dont be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try.
You'll never love a person you love unless you risk for love.
Love strives in hurting.
If you don't get hurt, you don't learn how to love.
Love doesn't hurt all the time, though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow.
Don't find love, let love find you.
That's why it's called falling in love because you don't force yourself to fall.
You just fall.
You cannot finish a book without closing its chapters.
If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.
Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress.
It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing.
The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go.
We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else; one who can love us even more than we can love ourselves.
On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get beckon the horse.
But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time.
To love is to risk rejection; to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk failure.
But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose your true self.
To love is to risk not to be loved in return.
How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain.
Love is like a knife.
It can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that always last for a lifetime.
Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling.
It should inspire you and give you joy and strength.
But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end.
Loving people means giving them the freedom who they choose to be and where they choose to be.
For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitless years, you should give thanks for you know, that they were the things that have helped you grow.
Loving someone means giving him the freedom to find his way.........whether it leads towards you or away from you. ....
Love is a painful risk to take but the
risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then that you'll experience the fullness of humanity and that is love.
Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire, and tear you apart.
Only love can make you cry and only love knows why.
If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk, if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love.
There was a time in our lives when we became afraid to fall in love.
Because every time we do, we get hurt.
We fall out of love but it's unfair not 2 give love another chance.
B4, it may hurt but this time, it may be the kind of love that is meant 4 us...
The love that may last 4ever....
The love that will bind two hearts 2gether and give pure joy to 2 souls longing 4 each other....
Now, tell me...are u in love?

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Whoever wrote this is a sure romantic. and no im not in love but it is tempting... I just found it funny how people can be this.. romantic. well for the one who wrote this, good for you! I might as well be realistic and drop this nonsense. Bah! love is a waste of energy and time.


Woe is me. I have lost passion.

Monday, December 27, 2004

insomnia

yippee!! it's exactly 2:59am in my clock and i'm still up. im too bored to sleep and im too tired to do anything but waste time. im not moving any bit on the positive.

factors:

it sucks hurting people when not meaning to. and when i do hurt people on purpose i feel less burdened, amused even. release. the irony of things.

a lot of things have been dragging me to their own ends.. i dont know wether they're pulling me toward the right or wrong direction. im in such a bind and i feel so helpless. and yet, i dont want to do anything about it.

im so detached from my former self. is this a good thing or a bad thing? can it be both? ack! it's tearing me apart. i dont know how to react. i feel.. helpless and it sickens me.

being weak sucks. but wearing a mask and acting as if ur under control is worse. it was never my intention to pull people down with me. it may have given me this sense of controlling the wheel but it demanded a huge amount of responsibility.. with what, i dont know. im not good with responsibilities. im not good with commitments. im not good with anything but slowing people down so i can feed off their youth.. their innocence.. their sincerity.. it nourishes me.

i am losing my favourite game. and what's worse is, nobody's there to see me fall.

hmmm.. and i just realized that insomnia can be contagious.

oh well.. im back. back to pretending as if everything's fine.. when it's not. find me