sunday afternoon

it's a choice to stay
it's a dream and I wanna wake

you have blood on your hands
and I'm feeling faint
and honey, you can't decide

I'm a drug you don't wanna give up
smoke your cigarettes, make your love

you poured blood in my heart
and I can't get enough
I'm drowning, drowning
and you can't decide

it's not about geography or happenstance
you need to fly and take a chance
you don't need to soar to emptiness
or float on high and forever dance alone
you're scared, scared, scared
cause I feel like home

hear your voice, knew right away
if you were here your eyes would say
there is blood on my feet
as I'm walking away
rivers are red, it's starting to rain

I'm not gonna live for you or die for you
won't do anything anymore for you
cause you leave me here on the other side

I'm not gonna shed one more tear for you
at least not til sunday afternoon
sunday afternoon

leave or stay

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this is a beautiful song by the ever brilliant rachael yamagata. it has been eating at me for a long while but its funny how i'm actually posting this on a sunday afternoon. coincidence? in doo's words 'natumbok mo, kaibigan.' :P here's a vid to prove my point. what point, you ask? that its a wonderful song of course! hayy.. enough of the small talk.. check it out.



pfft...

soon

Take care
I've been hurt before
Too much time spent on closing doors
You may hate me, but I'll remember to love you
Goodbye
Don't cry
You know why
And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything

All the waves of blame arrange as broken scenery
As they steal your best memories away
What if I was someone different in your only history?
Would you feel the same
As I walk out the door
Never to see your face again
Never to see your face again

And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
It'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything to change when I leave

~Rachael Yamagata - Quiet
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yes, very soon...

a song for the sigurist

Crazy as it all plays out
I think I'm lonelier than I've ever been before
'Cause I was so close
To going through that door
But I don't want to be to blame for them
I don't want to be to blame

Oh, would you please get out from under my skin?
'Cause I can't begin this yet
And I don't know what my intentions are
They're speaking in a different tongue
And, deep inside, I'm not as tough as I seem
But I won't let you know
Until it's right, I'm gonna stay my distance, and you should go
Oh, would you please get out
I'm not as strong as I seem, but I won't let you know
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Under My Skin by Rachael Yamagata

...and i couldn't have said it any better.

this time: i pray i'll have it easy. please?

because i dont want to bore you with my usual banter, because i dont want words to limit what my mind speaks, and simply because i'm just tired of talking, that's all there is to it. really.

tawa ta na? *chokes out a laugh* it's not working.

hahahahaY.